Things are moving very fast with the end of 2015 approaching. I have started submitting my book, “Boundary of Light”, to agents. I am working on my NaNoWriMo novel, and as soon as that is done I will go back to my Paul Jakarta series.

I wish I could devote all my waking hours to writing. I know one day it will happen, but that day seems so far away.

This year’s NaNo novel isn’t moving as quickly as last year’s did. It is a good storyline but it is moving slowly. This book has plagued me since April and now that I have the chance to write it, it is trying my patience!

Next year will be devoted to Edgar Allan Poe and all the research for the book I want to write then.

Until then, just taking one day at a time.

On Being Original

Today I watched a movie called “Lazarus.” As I watched this movie I realized it was very similar to the book I just finished revising called “Boundary of Light.” Both movie and book have a main character by the name of Frank. Both were about a scientist who brings his beloved back to life after a tragic accident. Both were about the use of our brains and the 90% unused portion. And both had to do with past issues with one of the main characters. As I sat and watched this movie I know my jaw hung open for most it. I couldn’t believe that my ideas were being used in this movie. Or should I say, I can’t believe I wrote a book similar to the ideas of this screen writer!

I have been praying for specific things during 2015 that will bring about amazing things if God allows them to happen. Slowly, but surely, things are moving into place for my prayers to be answered. I know that seeing this movie right at this time was Satan’s way of discouraging me. He was telling me the entire time I watched this movie “See, you don’t have any original ideas. Agents are going to read your book and say it’s been done and reject it.” And that very well could happen, but that will not keep me from moving forward. That will not keep me from chasing my dream. That will not keep me from doing what God has instructed me to do.

Yes, this kind of thing is depressing, but how many books and movies are out there that are similar? Lots of them! There have been dozens of movies produced and dozens of books written that have been inspired by the classics. That doesn’t make them any less entertaining.

Even in literature and art, no man who bothers about originality will ever be original: whereas if you simply try to tell the truth (without caring twopence how often it has been told before) you will, nine times out of ten, become original without ever having noticed it.
C.S. Lewis


I was talking to one of my friends from church today about my books. I told him about my self-published books, and I even gave him one to read. And I told him about the one I just finished that I will be submitting to agents to see if one will represent me. He was fascinated by it and then told me that he has thought about writing. He told me about the story he would write but then he told me that the grades he got in school in English and Grammar were not good. I explained to him that the creative talent God gave us was not the talent of writing a well-constructed book. The talent He gave us was to think up stories and characters, plot lines and villains. All the grammar, punctuation, and sentence structure can be fixed by an editor.

I told him all about NaNoWriMo and how it is was set up to inspire writers to get that novel down on paper. It’s not about writing a book ready to be published. It’s about writing a rough draft that you can work on the rest of the year until the next NaNoWriMo challenge. 

By the time we finished talking he looked at me and said, “What you said really inspired me. I’m going to get to writing that book.” I was so excited that I was able to help a writer get started writing. I even started telling the people at church that he was a writer, too. He tried to explain that he hasn’t written anything. I told him that all he has to do is write that first sentence and he will be a writer. So get writing.

I have spoken to others about their writing talents but none of the people I have talked to about it has done anything to move in that direction.

Remember…A writer writes, always…Billy Crystal “Throw Mama From the Train” 

The Journey Begins

The novel I wrote for NaNoWriMo last year (2014) is complete. I revised it twice and have put it into the hands of an editor and a friend both of whom will read it and review it and make corrections where needed. They will also give their opinion regarding the story and content.

The novel, “Boundary of Light”, is set in Galveston, Texas at the home of Dr. Frank N. Styne, a neurologist and scientist, who is working on human longevity by way of soul transferrence. His wife, Mary Styne, is involved in a traggic car accident leaving her in a coma from which the doctors do not expect her to awake.

Nikki Capital is a young girl newly rejected by the adult movie industry. After surviving through a life full of abuse and neglect, she finally realizes she cannot take any more, and decides to take her own life.

Dr. Styne finds Nikki’s body and decides to transfer his wife’s consciousness into it. What he and his colleague, Immanuel Gore, find is that Nikki is not completely gone, but will come back into her own body only to decide she wants a second chance.

This book is about their struggles through life, love, and reanimation of dead flesh.

Once I get feedback from my editor and my friend, I will send it out to agents.

Thank you for all your support, my loyal fans!

Claim It!

I don’t like people to know where I work because 1) I don’t like hearing their horror stories, and 2) I don’t want our clients to be able to find me for fear they will harass me or sue me if they think I write about them. So I don’t list on my FB or Twitter or even LinkedIn where I work. I got a message on LinkedIn that my boss was wanting to connect with me on LinkedIn. Without really thinking about it, I accepted. Then I realized that my account still showed who I worked for. And if you know how LinkedIn works, the system tries to connect you with other people that may help you in your career or shows jobs you may be interested in. I realized I didn’t want to be known as the person who works at such-and-such company so that others in that industry would find me or I would get job notices. I’m trying to get out of that industry. So I changed my job from what I actually do to “Author.”

I figured if I truly want to be an author, and I am trying to get published, then I need to stop telling people I work for this big corporation and say I am an author. And I am an author since I have two books out on the market. I need to stop saying “I want to be an author” and say “I am an author.” Granted it isn’t my full time job but in 6 years and 4 months it will be. I will be able to retire from the big corporation and concentrate on my writing.

Since I changed my job status I got a connection request from one of our customers whose job I handled and he is an actor. He worked on JFK and some others. He doesn’t have big roles but he has played in more films than I’ve been in (which is none). So I accepted the connection. If I want to be a contracted published author then I need to start making the connections that will get me there.

This is a start.

So when I went into FB and it said, “Where do you work?”…well…


Where Did The Time Go?

This seems to happen every year. I tell myself in January that I am going to keep up with my webpage and post at least every month, but time gets away from me and here I am 2-3 months later trying to play catch up. Not that anyone is paying attention…but I am paying attention.

So we have about 6 weeks until NaNaWriMo. I am very excited about it and look forward to starting my search for music and my research into writing this year’s book. I can give you the basis for the book, but that is about all. I am a gardener in that I have a seed of an idea and won’t know what comes from that seed until I start writing. Last year I thought my book was going to go in one direction when, in fact, it went in a totally different direction. The book truly wrote itself. So this year I have a seed of the story and my two main characters…let’s see what grows from the seed.

I am currently still revising my NaNo book from last year. I loved it so much that I have decided to use this one as the one I submit to agents. So I am working on it and when I am done I will submit it. Then I will work on my NaNo book in November. Then I will go back to the third book in the Paul Jakarta Chronicles and finish that one to self-publish it. I fell in love with the book from NaNo 2014. I truly hope someone will represent me and it will be picked up by a publishing house. I think it is an amazing book. I haven’t said that about any of the books I have written. But, then again, this is the book that wrote itself. I can’t take credit for it.

So I will try to keep up with everything. If you are ever in the neighborhood, I also write daily devotionals at Hope to see you there!


The Rendering

“Behold, I am coming quickly, and My reward is with Me, to render to every man according to what he has done. I am the Alpha and the Omega,  the first and the last, the beginning and the end.”       Revelation 22:12-13

Today I spent my day with one of our attorneys waiting for a settlement decision on a case. I enjoy speaking with this attorney and I truly do respect him and his opinion. As we settled in this morning in the office he looked at me and said, “Patricia! We are part of history today!” I asked, “What history?” He said, “Today the Supreme Court voted that gay marriage is a constitutional right!” He was very excited. It took me a while for it to sink in. “Like on a federal level?” I asked. “Yes!” He almost yelled. “It isn’t up to each state anymore!” I said, “What happens if we decide not to follow it?” He looked at me and said, “Remember what happened when the school wouldn’t let the black students in when they government ended segregation?” I said, “Yes.” He said, “That! That’s what will happen! They will make the state follow the law!” Hmm. Okay.

We sat all day talking about the Supreme Court’s decision and our views. We spoke about Texas seceeding from the U.S. We spoke about Ben & Jerry’s Ice Cream. And we eventually circled back around to the Supreme Court decision. So without posting it to FB I am putting my view here. Most won’t see it and if they do the issue will be history so it won’t matter. But if you don’t agree with me, that’s fine. We don’t have to agree.

I am not in favor of homosexuality at all. Call me old fashioned. Call me close-minded. Call me ignorant or whatever you want. That is my view just like you have yours. But I don’t agree with all the arguing of whether or not gays have the right to marry. Some say by allowing them to marry that it takes away from my marriage. No it doesn’t. It doesn’t do anything to my marriage or my beliefs. I still believe God made Adam and Eve and they were man and woman and God married them. No where in the bible do we see marriage between two people of the same sex. So, no, I don’t agree that a proper marriage can be made between two people of the same sex. I believe homosexuality is a sin and I will until I draw my last breath here on earth.

Having said that, I will say that some of my best friends are gay. I have an adopted daughter who is gay and she is one of my best friends. I have met and friended people who treat me better than some of the people I go to church with! I love them just as much as I love my heterosexual friends. I try to show them love the way Jesus loved the adulterous woman. The way Jesus loved the tax collectors. The way Jesus loved each and every one of us who have sinned and fallen short! I didn’t always love this way but it took a gay co-worker who eventually became my friend to show me love that I didn’t deserve. He showed me more of Jesus than I was showing him. It is sad to admit but sometimes my worldly friends treat me better than my Christian friends.

I think the problem all started with gay partners not having the same rights as married couples. They were not considered family so they couldn’t see their loved ones in the hospital, or inherit their property, or get insured. By passing this law, they have given homosexuals the same rights as heterosexual married couples. If we had just allowed them to have those rights they would not be fighting to be classified as married.

What this does is make them more responsible for their decisions. As a parent of a lesbian, it is very difficult to get emotionally attached to one partner only to find that she has traded that partner for another and this will be her third “marriage.” Maybe by making it legally binding she won’t be so hasty to jump from one girl to the next. There will be legal and financial ramifications. So they want to get legally marriage? Then they will have to get legally unmarried. All they did was open another money making avenue for divorce attorneys.

Personally, I think there are more important things to fight about, but I am also glad the fight is over. Regardless of what I think, regardless of what the Supreme Court says, and regardless of who marries whom – we will all be held accountable for our actions by God. He says in Revelation that He is coming and He will render to every man according to what he has done. He says He is the Alpha and Omega, the first and the last, the beginning and the end. In other words, God started it and God’s going to end it. Whether or not you believe in God is your decision, but He will be the one to exact justice – from everyone!

“Let the one who does wrong, still do wrong; and the one who is filthy, still be filthy; and let the one who is righteous, still practice righteousness; and the one who is holy, still keep himself holy.”

Revelation 22:11

Get Thee Behind Me, Satan!

I am a Christian. I mean die-hard, church-going, bible-reading, daily-praying, contemporary Christian music Christian. I believe in God and Jesus and the power of the Holy Spirit. I believe that I was put on this earth for a reason and so were you. I believe that God gave me special gifts and I am to use those gifts to glorify Him. And I believe that Satan will attack us, thwart us, block us, and tackle us to keep us from completing our mission.

Work has been extremely difficult and time-consuming. I mean, it’s always time-consuming, but it has taken up much of my time to the point that I have to make myself do my laundry, clean the house, and exercise. It is taking up more than a regular 40-hour work week. And that time is taking away from my writing.

I am currently working on a new novel. I know, I know, I haven’t finished Book 3 in the Paul Jakarta chronicles, but I have set that aside for the moment because I am preparing a book to be submitted to publishing agents so I can be picked up by a publishing house. And I have been  unable to work on that book for a couple of months. It is difficult and depressing not to be able to do what you love the most. And Satan has made sure that my time has been taken up by other things.

I got a call from a friend who asked me how I was and when I answered “okay” she asked why only “okay.” I spilled my guts that I am depressed and want to write but I have been too busy to write. Then it dawned on me that if Satan is keeping me away from writing this much then writing is exactly what I should be concentrating on. So I pulled myself up by my bootstraps and am making sure I make the time to revise my novel so I can send it to agents.

If Satan is working that hard at preventing me from doing something then that very something is exactly what I should be doing!

Write on!


I Am Therefore I Am Original

I went to Half Price Books not too long ago and spent enough money to get their 2015 calender. Because I already have four new calanders on the walls of my office, I gave the calander to my daughter. It was exciting because she has met some of the authors featured in the calander. Including one who was one of her teachers at UTD. She said that when he read her work he said it wasn’t original. It made her angry and showed how ignorant the guy was.

The only thing it takes to be original is being a different person than everyone else. And if I am not mistaken that would mean everyone in the whole world. The art we create will have similarities with other artwork in the same media simply because we live on the same planet and experience similar things in life. But no two people tell the same story. Even if two siblings grew up in the same house, with the same parents, and experienced every moment of their lives together, they would still have different stories because they are two different people. Even twins have different stories because they are different people.

Yes, I tend to concern myself with originality. I wonder if I am writing something similar to another writer. I even posted last week about seeing an idea I thought was unique in a movie on Netflix. But ultimately, each one of us can tell a different story because we are different people. So there are similaries, so what! You want a totally new expereience that no one else has had? Go to another planet. That will do it.

Don’t worry about being original, just tell your story. Because it is your story, it will be an original.


Can I Get Published, Please?

As an author of the 21st Century I have been amazed at what is published and considered worthy to be put on the shelves of our bookstores for intellectual consumption.

Did you know there is actually a book out there on how to successfully cheat on your spouse? Or how about how to kill your husband? Yeah, there is one out there for that. How to run a dog fighting ring? In case you want to know that, there are books out there for you. And the one that I actually saw in the bookstore after it was published, and made me sick, was the book (I will not give you the title because it doesn’t deserve such credit) on a single man’s exploits as he sleeps with women, gets excessively drunk, and makes a fool of himself. Yup, it’s out there in book form picked up by Kensington Publishing Corp. and the book actually made it to the New York Times Bestseller List.

So I see these books that are out on shelves warping people’s minds while good books from good authors are struggling to make it on the market. I know it is all about the money. I know that. But it does make me sick to see what sells. Or what publishers believe will sell.

When I saw that book put out by Kensington Publishing I thought, “If someone will publish this, then I certainly have a chance!” But as time has gone by (it has been several years since I first saw that book) I think “If someone will publish this because this is what sells, I don’t stand a chance.”

What I am very thankful for is that publishers don’t make the decisions…God does. And if God wants my name and my books out there while I am still alive then YAY! But if He doesn’t, what can I say? YAY! Thank you, Lord, that You have given me this talent and even though the world didn’t think much of it, I used it to glorify You and that is all that matters!

I know there will be coffee in Heaven!